Thank you, Anberlin, for helping me heal my heart.
Tonights show was more than I expected. It was major music therapy time. Today was a horrible day but ended up ending beautifully.
My mom was in the emergency room for what seemed like forever. She's been having stomach problems to where she's so swollen she looks 8 months pregnant. She was in severe pain so they gave her pain medicine, did a cat scan, blood work, kidney tests (she only has one working kidney) and other tests. Hours later they came back fine, and the doctor said he had no idea what's wrong with my mother. Pissed off, I left to head to Dallas for my concert with Beth.
I have always adored Anberlin. Their music has helped me through so much. Their new album is close to my heart with things happening lately. Their set was solid and beautiful. I stomped my feet to every single beat. I pumped my fist in the air like I was in a protest. I swayed, danced, jumped to the music. I screamed my heart out to every single song they performed. I never thought songs that made me think of a certain someone would help heal the wounds caused by the same guy. Its like Anberlin put their own band aid over my heart. And I am so thankful for music, because I would have been dead many years ago if music did not exist.
I'm sitting at work right now worried about my mother, watching Anberlin videos, and reassuring myself that I am going to be okay. And that he apparently isn't meant to be with an amazing person like myself. Its okay, he will regret it eventually. And he's going to have to make an effort on this "friendship" because I am tired of doing everything.
Once again, thank you Anberlin. So much.
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